Couldn't get from my ar to the doctor's office (maybe 200 feet...) without getting winded.
He says I have something similar to asthma, and Upper Respiratory Somethingorother...
So, I am to stay home form work today and tomorrow, and he told me to cancel tonight's New Year's Eve gig at Cryan's. He didn't even want me there to just play guitar.
"Bedrest!" He tells me.
That's all I've BEEN doing since Sunday.
God, I just want to get well...
To any and all fans of Overtime who might be reading this, sorry about tonight's show. Trust me, if there were any way I could do this, I would.
Have a happy, healthy and safe New Year, folks.
Lee 12/31/2003 01:25:00 PM [+]
Monday, December 29, 2003
Breathe In, Breathe Out...
At five o'clock this morning, I woke up with a coughing fit after a pretty bad nightmare. Compound this with having had bronchitis for the last week or so.
So, what with the freaky bad dream, the coughing and the basic shortness of breath I already had, I was soon gagging.
The next thing you know, I was breathing like I had run a marathon... AT MY CURRENT WEIGHT OF ABOUT 350 lbs!
The sweat started pouring off of me, tears running from my eyes. I became light headed and dizzy.
I thought I was going to die.
And I don't mean that in an "oh man, I though we were SOOOO dead," type of way, I mean I REALLY thought I was punching my ticket this morning.
Sheila, my wife, was asleep in the bedroom (when my bronchitis flares up, I tend to sleep in the living room, sitting up... I breathe easier that way)
I called out to her, waking her from a dead sleep.
She came running into the kitchen and immediately started calming me down, recognizing that I was REALLY having a massive panic attack, brought on by everything else.
As my brething eased, she went and got dressed, helped me put my socks and sneakers on and then took my ass to the Emergency Room at Union General about 1.5 miles away.
I stayed there from 5:30 AM to about 12:15 PM.
They gave me three breathing treatments and some steroids to open up my airway, and took X-Rays to make sure I didn't have pneumonia. They concluded I have Asthmatic Bronchitis.
They also told me I looked a whole new person from when I walked in, pale, sweating, barely able to take a medium sized breath, to when I left, color in my face, calm and breathing slow, but steady.
I have spent the entire day on the couch, watching movies and TV. My breathing is still slow, but steady. I coughed up a LOT of mucus (sorry for the gory details) and doing much less coughing now.
So in all, I am doing much better now.
But I admit, I am STILL a bit scared to go back to sleep.
Lee 12/29/2003 12:51:00 AM [+]
Sunday, December 14, 2003
It's All About ME!
And the sooner you all realize that, the happier this world will be.
Yes, yes, as of today, I am now 33 years old.
Jeebus, where does the time go?
Seems like just yesterday I was a bright, young 32, and now, here I am, 33 and decrepit.
It's almost enough to make you wanna just stop working and become a shut in, walking around in shorts and a robe, drinking 2-liter after 2-liter of Diet Dr. Pepper, eating pint after pint of Chubby Hubby, scratching various body parts and watching Jerry Springer all while waiting for the inevitable cold touch...
Of a kitten who likes to put his paws into the water dish before jumping on daddy...
Actually, that's his name.
We got a couple of kitten recently.
Well, okay, in SEPTEMBER...
And we have named one Bootsy (because of his white "boots" and a love of all things funkadelic) and the other, is Dude (because of a love of "The Big Lebowski").
So now, we have three cats: Bandit, Bootsy and The Dude.
There's a movie script there in those names, but I haven't found it yet...
I'd like to thank all of you who still stop by on occasion to read my rantings, even though lately, there have been few and most of them have been pics and memes.
So, you might ask, what brings me out of hiding to write all of a sudden?
Well, today is my birthday.
33 years young.
And I'm just reflecting whilst I have some time alone (the wife is out shopping for a short while).
I have been doing some research into writing lately. I saw a movie and picked up four books on it and have been reading various scripts as well. I've essentially been trying to self teach myself the finer points of writing.
Now, some of you might say "but Potch, we read that 'Killer High' thing you and Matsushita were writing over at Wheaton's Soapbox and it was good" and for that, I would say thank you.
But I want to be better than good. I want to be DAMNED good, if not great.
As you might (or might not know) I wrote two screenplays over the summer; a Tarantino-wannabe cromedy (crime comedy) called "The Comic Shop" (inspired SPECIFICALLY by Ben Kingsley's performance in "Sexy Beast") and a most;y true life story about my father's death called "Live With The Results".
I like them both, but after finishing them, I (and my wife, mother and Rob) all saw flaws in them.
So I wanted to rewrite them, but felt I was doing so at a disadvantage.
So I put them aside to give myself some space.
Then, I rented "Adaptation", with Chris Cooper, Meryl Streep and a GREAT Nick Cage.
The movie is a great tale of how screenwriter Charlie Kaufman (the ACTUAL screen writer) takes an assignment to adapt a book for the screen and hits a severe case of writer's block. And his identical twin brother (who doesn't actually exist) is now a fledgling screenwriter himself who takes a writing course by one Robert McKee.
Anyway, from a writing or writer's standpoint, the film is FRIKKING brilliant, inspiring and actually teaches you a thing or two about writing.
Inspired, I then bought some books on how to (at least) be a BETTER writer.
First was the "Powers Scriptbook" by Brian Michael Bendis with illustrations by Michael Avon Oeming.
A GREAT insight into not only script writing abut specifically comic book script writing. This book inspired me to search out more.
Then, there was "Creating Unforgettable Characters" by Linda Seger.
Excellent book about getting into the psychology of your characters, knowing their whole lives (not just for the story) and making them complex.
Followed by "The Novel Writer's Toolkit" by Bob Mayer.
This is a great book for ANY writer, explaining how to construct a story, adding more information about character development and such.
And finally, I found out that the Robert McKee mentioned in "adaptation" was a REAL, VERY ACCOMPLISHED screenwriting teacher.
So I sought out his book "Story".
A FANTASTIC book about writing, whether for the screen or writing short stories, novels, whatever. It's a bit like a technical manual, but has been teaching me so much!
In all, this is kind of like a home writing course I have been putting myself through. I am seeing where I have done the right thing in my writing, and where I have failed.
Hopefully, all of this will be put to good use soon, and I'll have more works of fiction to show you.
But for now, I'm just gonna sit back and chill, enjoy my birthday, watch "Kill Bill" and hopefully go out for BBQ tonight.
Oh, and also celebrate the capture of international fucktard, Saddam Hussein.
A nice brithday present in and of itself.
Oh, and while yeah, I am both saddened and steamed about the Yankees losing Andy Pettitte, I WILL say that getting Gary Sheffield, Javier Vazquez, Kevin Brown, Flash Gordon (Gotta reread "The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon" now...), Paul Quantrill and Kenny Lofton eases the pain a bit, as, right now, I would have to admit the Yankees are a better team than the one that went to the World Series...
Lee 12/14/2003 11:06:00 AM [+]
Friday, December 05, 2003
Tonight's gig at Durkin's has been cancelled due to the winter storm blowing piles of snow on us all.
Sorry to all those who were planning on coming.
Hope to see you next Friday at the Liberty or two weeks from tonight at The Rattlesnake.